I considered reforming my ways. I thought of all the advantages that would result if I only and always said exactly the truth, about my own thoughts or anything else as I understood it, no matter what.
It seemed likely that a chief disadvantage would be the loss of most of my friends, estrangement from employers and relatives...real damage from a practical point of view.
So I relented and lost myself instead.
Each person to whom you can not tell the truth, or think you should not tell the truth is yet another you have set beyond your lonely little pale.